Nobody can tell me what to do. It's a truth I've had to come to terms with about myself. Once I've made up my mind, it's hard work convincing me to change it. Now, it's not that I don't like to listen, I see it simply as that I stand by my opinions and thought processes. Lemmie explain.
It's always good to lean on others in our weakest moments, but sometimes we just need to dig deep and find the strength within ourselves. It may hurt to did that deep, but when we relight our own fire, it helps believe in ourselves that much more.
I woke up yesterday and wrote my first list in a long while. It was a mixture of chores and goals ( 1x load of laundry mixed in with researching e-commerce opportunities that fit my website) but once everything was written down and separated out into individual tasks, well it all just felt a lot more...'montable.'
Can, could, may, might, must, shall, will, would and should are the devil's time wasters. You don't 'try,' you 'do.' When you give yourself the option of 'do' or 'do not' and the 'do' is something that you know is going to challenge your comfort zone, it's a lot easier to lean in favour of the 'not.' That's why you have to change your modals from ones of probability, to that of obligation.
All year I've had this heavy feeling that I have too much catching up to do in order to catch up to everyone brave enough to start before me. As a result, I've had all these ideas swirling in my head that I've left un-actioned because I'm scared to commit to a path in case its the wrong one and I set my self back even further; thus, setting myself back even further.
Previously on 'Shower Thoughts'(continue in the style of a TV recap) I told you I'd settled on my purpose and my next step was to start writing for the music industry. Within minutes of posting that I'd found a startup online music publication and registered my interest in writing for them.
I was beginning to miss the feeling of letting something whimsical spill out of the pads of my fingers and across my keyboard